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Courage through adversity, or just fucking stupid?

The usual male whinefest, to be sure. I have been dating my GF for the last 7 years. In fact, our anniversary is next week. But got dumped last week. The cause of woes are many but I am thinking that finances are the main, or at least the root, cause of our discord. Not that this is unique in this day and age. Even the most healthy relationships I have had has had some discontent about finances. We both met when she was going to college, away from her home. Tough times dictated that we move closer to some more sources for support, which involved her family. During the first two years of our relationship, I was the one supporting her. Grand ol time in fact. But after we moved back to where she has a history things started falling by the wayside. First of all, her actively family dislikes me. Again this is to be assumed, but I think they do her just as much as they do to me by simply not accepting the fact that she loved me. I supported her, I treat her with respect and made sure to promote her following her dreams. Secondly was her friend base that I had to compete with. Her old buddies disliked me without even attempting to meet me. That and her guy friends are always hanging around. As we all know, a sure sign of trouble to come. The usual strains on a relationship aside, the real kicker came when the cheating started to happen. We usually did our dirty talk in bed about all sorts of things, but we never actively sought them out and we seemed to have an understanding that that is where they would stay. As titillating fantasies. There were several occurrences throughout the relationship of this happening, and while it took great force of will to forgive her, she never reciprocated this in what I would call sincere remorse for betraying me. Then depression washes over me. To the point where I lose my job and my own sense of self respect because of that. I am sure she lost her respect for me too after that. More cheating occurs and I slip deeper outside of myself. Plus she had only once been truthful about any of these betrayals, and only after I confronted her about another one. I am not sure if the one person that people lie to is always their insignificant other, but it sure seemed she thought so. I hurt a lot through all of this. Deeply saddened. All I wanted was to try to communicate more about what bugs us so that we do not go through all this garbage as I feel that even if we are going to break up, then mature communication about how you feel seems to be the best way to live your life as a sign of respect to everyone around you. Now while I did work for the last 5 years of our relationship, it was never very steady. Companies folding all around and then going to self employment which was even less steady and fulfilling. And each new time one of her old guy friends makes an appearance, the cycle starts anew. So she dumps me, then makes a beeline to the most recent buddy to show his face. Which of course I am devastated over, especially since I really tried so fucking hard to overlook and overcome past mistakes. I feel like a fool obviously, but after honestly evaluating my feelings for her and not doubting the possibility reconciliation then I would have split years ago. I takes two to break up, but it feels like I am left with nothing because there was no chance for reconciliation. Just fuck someone else and then move on as if the past 7 years didn’t mean a damn thing at all. The lack of support I have is laughable too, as after a week this is the first time I have even spoke of it to anyone. So the despair of loneliness creeps in as well to make the prospect unbearable. And she has the balls to try to make me her cuddle slut. Jeez.

I have come to the realization that I was just fucking stupid. Love can mean a lot, but it is only worth as much as the other person puts into it. Damn fucking shame.

why the hell are dudes letting women run there shit? my dad, my grandfather abused just for pussy? FUCK THAT SHIT I would rather die.

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