i feel like an epic scumbag

i’ve been visiting this site for a while, only reason i’m posting i guess is cause i gotta get this outa me. i was with this girl for like, 5 years, and it was rocky as hell, first real love kinda deal i guess and we split and got back together so many times i don’t even know. well over the summer for some stupid reason we were thinking about tryin to make it work again, till she gave me clamidia from sleepin around, then drops the bomb of 10 other dudes i didn’t know about cause she wants to be honest and all this shit. Now, yeah we’ve been apart and together and i don’t know when they all happened, but the last one was when we were close, and she was fucking both of us. well did him twice. i’ve always been mono to her and only been with one other girl in the past 5 years, which she knows about. and i knew about another on her end. but pretty much after this i said fuck off stay outa my life leave me alone, and of course like clockwork she wants it all to work and wants to prove how much she really loves me yada yada yada. it’s tough cause i really do care about her, and i worry about her, and i’m a sucker for her when she’s upset. so after about 2 months of not talking, ignoring her calls, texts, and stupid emails linking love songs on youtube, it finally happened, i went to her apartment, and to put it as bluntly as possible, fucked her face. well… now i feel like shit :\ i already told her i took advantage of her feelings and all, and told her i was very sorry, and she’s ok, she is just happy she got to see me. i really usually don’t do that kinda stuff, but going into it i knew exactly what i was doing, i wanted to get my rocks off, i’ve been lonely just like her, and i knew if i went there, i’de stick my winky somewhere 100% chance , yeah i just called it that. after what happened i was too scared of actually intercourse. so yeah i feel like shit still, i feel like a scumbag, i used someone i care about, and then i also got feelings of how it felt good to kiss her and be close to her and all that lovey dovey crap. I was so fine by myself for all this time, didn’t need anyone, now i just feel alone, shitty, scummy, even depressed about it. everything just looks like shit now.

Why would YOU feel like shit, if she’s the one that’s been sleeping around. Granted, you weren’t an angel, but if she says she’s fine, just leave it as it is.

wow. mate if this was me… if she wasn’t crying, i wouldn’t have been finished. it would have been utterly DEGRADING, humiliating, god-awful sex. she would have been scrubbing herself like a rape victim afterwards. you need to get all the pent up frustration/rage/etc at her out of your system.

Seriously, do you want chlamydia or aids next..? the fact she kept with 10 guys while she was broken up with you, shows she was never thinking of you, rather than her own sluttish fun and whenever a girl sleeps with 2 guys, it’s usually meaning she is trying to either choose one of them and being an indecisive whore, or simply enjoying having 2 guys wrapped around her finger. Real girls never do this, they are a rarity, but they are out there… no one should have to settle for a untrustworthy skank, unless they want their self-esteem to be that beaten down and enjoy the idea of a life of self-denial. The choice is yours.

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