Fuck... This... Shit..... And... FUCK... U!!!

So, HE gets laid off, and I get sent out of fuckin state... I don't know HOw MANY TIMES I have to admit the wrongs I have done (i.e. shit due to drinkin too much), and I just get out of fuckin detox... muthafucka goes to jail dsue to fuckin weed.. almost goes to jail with his drunk ass friends... my mother has a second fuckin stroke since T-giving... I call for comfort and get a huge pile of shit on how this is ALL MY FAULT because of my fuckin alcoholism (which is funny for him to say, beings that he drinks all the FUCKIN time!)He gets laid off all the fuckin time by the same job and sits ON HIS ASS collecting unemployment and gets LUCKY to have them call him back as their bitch...) So, I get a HUGE plate of fucked up shit because it's so FUCKIN easy to point the finger at the one with the "OBVIOUS" problems! I DON'T need this shit... any friend I make, he's jealous of... especially guys (because I just HAVE to be fucking them, right?!)... most of my shit is still the next state away... HE LOVES THIS!!!! I guaran-FUCKIN-tee it.... he.... I can't even finish a fuckin sentence barely... I am filled with SO.... MUCH.... anger and HATE right now.... my parents can't continue having me stay here for what was SUPPOSED to be a month... even if I didn't get a job REPEAT: EVEN IF I DIDN'T GET A JOB.... now it's all "Well, U don't have $$ saved up & U this and U that..." I personally think he's fucking around... laughs as he ignores me calls... and I am beginning to doubt whether or not my shit is still safe in storage... It just may be cuz his PRECIOUS T.V. is there... I want to beat the fuck out of something so badly right now... He understands only when it's convenient... A fuckin man of convenience is all he is... when I'm out working and making friends... he's all insecure and calling me all fucking depressed... and now that I have next to... only NEXT TO... nothing, he's sittin on top of the world..... I'm not a fuckin stupid, or weak-willed, or unwise as he seems to think am... The "I don't give a FUCK" has kicked in... I'm fuckin OVER muthafuckas with their mind games... whew!